Oh wow, I've been thinking about this a lot lately. I am a bit overweight and my boyfriend is the athletic type, you know and yes, sometimes I feel extremely weird when we go out. Beautiful girls look at him all the time, they don't even care I am there and it makes me feel so bad.
We met online too and my weight never seemed to be an issue, but when we first saw each other I could see on his face how disappointed he was, he was used to go out with nice, thin girls and I wasn't exactly that.
The first couple of days were truly horrible, there was a moment when I was about to ask him to leave my house because I was feeling really bad. But it was exactly then when he asked me to talk and he asked me to forgive him because he was really and he would like to start over again. I had to think about it a lot and decided I would give it a try as friends, we started doing things like playing football together at midnight and things like that. It was great and after a few days he told me he never felt that good with any other girl before, because he could be himself with me. He then asked me to give him a chance and asked me to be his girlfriend, of course I didn't say yes straight away, he didnt deserve it!!!!
I have this problem now, I know he loves me, he shows it to me everyday. But I still feel insecure when we're together. I think we all have seen a couple where the guys is extremely hot and the girl isnt that much and what do we say? (Well, at least I have said it) "what is he doing with her?" I feel that's what people say when they see us together.
He tells me all the time he doesnt care about these things, that I'm beautiful and that our love is not just a superficial love based on looks that is deeper than that. I love to hear those things.
It's hard for me to believe these things after what happened before, he understands and he is being so patient with me. But I also understand that this is something I have to work about. I don't want my insecurities to ruin something as beautiful as what we have now.
Mysh
It's hard when everytime you turn your telly on you see these beautiful thin and tall girls and then you look at yourself and you don't look any close to that, but we all have to learn to love ourselves exactly the way we are. It's hard and it might take a bit time, but it's something we all must do. We all are beautiful, big or small. And this may sound like a cliché, but appearences dont last forever and at the end what it counts it's what we have inside.