I Lost the Baby

Awww I'm so sorry to hear this.  Sending healing vibes to you and your family during this difficult time  :\\\'(

Even though I am new here, please know that you are in my thoughts.

I wish I knew the right words to say to take away your pain...    *hugs*

Don't give up hope!   This is the first step in your healing process... talking about your feelings.  We're here for you whenever you need to talk... meanwhile, rest up and take care of yourself.

Love and Light,
~Angel
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Oh Autumn..I'm so sorry for you and for Jamie, too.

Please know you're in my thoughts..
*HUGS* Please take good care of you, ok?
XJen

Autumn,

Deeply sorry for your loss, my thoughts are with you and your husband.

x

Thank you, Everyone, for your all your thoughts and prayers, and a special thanks to those who have sent me PMs of support and encouragement.  The outpouring of friendship and concern is greatly appreciated by both me and Jamie.  I know the road to full recovery may be a long one, but surrounded by such love as I am, I know it will happen, and the tears will make way for smiles again.

~Autumn

{{{{{Autumn}}}}}}  I was away from the computer for a few days. Sending my prayers your way too!  :\\\'(

Just seeing this now...  :\\\'(  I hope you are doing ok, you have lots of support and caring friends here by the looks of this thread. You and your family are in my thoughts, I don't know what to say at a time like this, but am sending you hugs and good wishes 

i'm sorry Songmistress..

 i cannot begin to imagine how you feel. but know we are here for you.
please take care....and know you have a little angel now....
:hugs:

Again, thank you all.  I feel the support and prayers, and it really helps. 


I've decided to share two poems here which I have written about this.  I don't often share what I write on UKY (I don't want people to get the idea that I am trying to promote myself in a conceited way; I always share my poetry and lyrics with people who ask to see (or hear) them instead).  Anyway, I decided to do it this time because it is a theraputic practice (in this case)...and, I thought, it might help - or be meaningful to - anyone else who has gone through this, as well.

Never

I will miss the smile I never got to see,
I will mourn the loss of whom belonged to me,
I’ll cry for the voice I never got to hear,
The eyes I never met, the touch of one so dear.
You were - and always will be - loved, Little One.
In my heart you’ll live; unseen, but never gone.

Autumn Dawn Leader
Copyright ©2005 Autumn Dawn Leader

‘Til Time Answers

Will I ever again be well?
They say that only Time can tell.
But, I am not a patient one
To wait upon the moon and sun
To rise and set on endless days,
Enduring the exhaustive maze,
Run around, while they wait to tell
If I’ll ever again be well.
I simply do not wish to go
Through these motions, fast and slow;
Exercise in futility,
The semblance of normality,
The putting on of some brave face,
And going back to the rat race.
I’m not up to it, can’t you tell?
I just can’t do it ‘til I’m well!
And, when - and if - I’ll ever be,
I must wait ‘til Time answers me.

Autumn Dawn Leader
Copyright ©2005 Autumn Dawn Leader

wow.. autumn, those are lovely poems...
thank you for sharing them..


i have a friend in the states who recently lost her baby at 10 weeks..
she posted this on her babies memorial website:

"Sometimes in spring a person will come across an apple blossom lying on the ground having been brought down by a heavy rain or a gust of wind. Someone might be tempted to say, 'What a pity it died so soon. It would have made a splendid apple.' To speak like that seems to imply that the whole worth of that blossom lies in the future, a future from which it has been cut off. But that is not true. The point is that the blossom lived, even if only for a short while. And it accomplished something. During its brief life its perfume sweetened the air, and its beauty brightened the earth. Moreover, its existence signaled the arrival of spring. That is no small achievement. What it would become is not the point. The point is that it was perfect as a blossom."

~~Father Eugene Doyle

wow.. autumn, those are lovely poems...
thank you for sharing them..


i have a friend in the states who recently lost her baby at 10 weeks..
she posted this on her babies memorial website:

"Sometimes in spring a person will come across an apple blossom lying on the ground having been brought down by a heavy rain or a gust of wind. Someone might be tempted to say, 'What a pity it died so soon. It would have made a splendid apple.' To speak like that seems to imply that the whole worth of that blossom lies in the future, a future from which it has been cut off. But that is not true. The point is that the blossom lived, even if only for a short while. And it accomplished something. During its brief life its perfume sweetened the air, and its beauty brightened the earth. Moreover, its existence signaled the arrival of spring. That is no small achievement. What it would become is not the point. The point is that it was perfect as a blossom."

~~Father Eugene Doyle

And thank you for sharing that.  I needed to read those words - those very true words. 

you're welcome..
i'm glad reading it helped:)

xx

If you want to PM me, please do. I lost my baby 2 months ago and it is still very fresh for me. Please, please PM me or email me if you want to chat - I know how crushing it is.

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I am sorry for your loss. I know exactly what you are going through.

It helps to look to the future, and not dwell on what could have been. These things happen as the body knew there was something wrong, and nature took over. I know that is sounds awful to hear, but that is how I got through it.

*HUGS*