No advice, but whazzup? Is your course of study finished already? Seems like only yesterday you couldn't wait to get to Albuquerque?!

Yeah, I was excited to go, but it's turned out that it's not quite what I thought it would be

. I kind of knew as soon as I got there that I might have made a mistake in coming back to UNM, but my family and one of the international advisors persuaded to give it a go, at least for one semester, which I did. Eventually, I felt a bit better about being here, but I still haven't been all that happy or comfortable being here (the only things keeping me going were watching UK TV shows on Netflix/DVD, talking to my UK friends on MSN and knowing that I would be coming home for 2 weeks in July!)
To be honest, I've kind of had a tough time here the last few months, mostly to do with the fact that the PhD work is much harder than I was expecting and that I'm really not all that interested in the project I'm doing. I've been mulling over whether to come back for the last few months, but had no clue what was the right decision, but when I left to come home for a visit and realised that I had no desire to come back and was absolutely dreading it (I was in tears for 4 days at the thought of flying back!), I knew that I needed to come home

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I also miss a lot about the UK - my family, my friends, just my life in general, and I'm really just not happy over here. I really don't want to be unhappy for the next 5 years, doing a project that I have very little desire to do and am not actually all that good at (computer programming and fluid flow models!). I considered the possibility of trying to transfer to a different US university (UNM doesn't have any one working in the area I really wanted to be in), but truth is, I don't really want to be in the US anymore. I've now spent almost 2 years of my life here in total, and I've now realised that I'd rather be at home instead.