i don't know what i'm doing anymore . . .

i just don't think i can possibly do this anymore, dan and i promise we'd chat once a week on skype, theres always a few moments we'd be able to give each other. today he basically said he couldn't because some girl was coming to his house, a girl who i KNOW likes him, and i'm scared. i flipped out. i HATE this long distance thing, i HATE the fact that i cant do anything about it. what if something happens? he's already broken my heart before, and just messaging him on bbm isn't enough for me. i told him to put himself in my shoes, he already broke up with me, breaking my heart, because he couldn't be alone. and now, well i'm afraid its going to happen again. he doesn't seem to understand, even if i try to tell him to put himself in my shoes, or what if i started doing things with a guy who we both know still likes me? he doesn't get it!

sorry everyone, i needed to get things out and just cry a lot. i'm really depressed with it being the holidays and i'm feeling really angry about things, asking why things can't be done faster but really its our own fault. i just really needed to vent A LOT.

Try not to be so hard on yourself.  Things are more difficult during the holidays, but hopefully it will be clearer soon.

I'm really trying, but I got so frustrated that he couldn't seem to understand where I was coming from. I mean is it that hard? With the holidays, after spending a great christmas with him last year and now nothing this year? and then this new girl? seriously, what is a girl thousands of miles away to do?

ldr relationships are very hard..it is great when you are together but when one of you has to leave to go home it is the worst..it is depressing and you have a longing for that person because they can't be there with you..It sounds like it is even harder for you 2 talking once a week. I have been in your shoes...my now husband a couple of times seemed to pull away when we were apart..it is because he couldn't handle being alone and wanted me there with him. His way of handling it was to pull away from me where as I needed to talk to him as much as I could. His way of dealing was the less he talked to me the better for him..it wasn't as painful he said...

I think I would have freaked to if my husband had told me when we were dating that he couldn't talk to me because another girl was coming over...When we are in an LDR our emotions are so strong that we sometimes do get a little irrational..but from what you have said he broke your heart before. You may need to assess the whole situation and then have a talk with him about what he did and how it made you feel when he invited her over. Tell him how it makes you feel. Do you email during the week as well or only talk once a week? Maybe you two could start emailing more and stuff and keep the communication open..It is really hard at the holidays. I hope everything works out for you two..remember to talk with him and let him know how you are feeling. He isn't going to know until you tell him and then find out how he is feeling. See if he will talk to you about it. LDR's are hard but you can make it through I am sure of it..if I can do it you can do it   
If you ever need to vent or anything just message me..believe me I have been there done that..

so, I think I need to go and talk to someone, I don't know how to go about this, and I'm not sure if anyone has needed to do this before. Can anyone help me out? I just want to be able to talk about everything I'm feeling at the moment, because it's really overwhelming and I just kind of want it to be a stranger (well stranger to me, not to listening!) so thank you . . .

Kristin, how are you doing? PM me if you would like; I'm not in an LDR, but I'd like to help if I can.