Well, he's gone again . . .

I took Daniel to the airport about 3 hours ago after spending 17 days with him here at home. It was the first time he met my family and we had such a great time and he got along really well with them. And now, I'm just laying in bed, holding on to his pillow and crying. I have a feeling, and well I'm just feeling a lot worse than before. I needed this visit to see him, and I really had to force myself to leave the airport today. I have a feeling we're in for a tough road this year, and all I want is a hug, and I know I won't get any for awhile Sorry, but I know I'm going to be really sad in the next few weeks and I know I can come on here and vent.

Aww, Kristin, I'm sorry. I'm glad you had such a wonderful time with him, though.

thank you I'm already planning our next trip, and we discussed our next step in person which was a nice change. but i keep checking on his flight wishing i were on it. why do these things have to be so hard? i know it's worthwhile in the end but  

It's just awful.  I think that I cry more every time we say goodbye.  The last time I left London the IO actually gave me tissues! 

Just keep looking at the light at the end of the tunnel.  It's the only thing that gets me through it. 

I know, we've finally really started to figure out what we're going to do. He actually cried because he didn't want to go. He has been sad before but he hasn't cried, so I knew that was gonna get me crying and it did of course. I just can't fall asleep, I miss having him here so much. Always that light at the end of the tunnel, I just wish it would be a lot closer than it seems to be.

I know exactly what you're going through.  You are now where I was just about 10 years ago.  Now I live in the UK and have been happily married to my English hubby for nearly 5 years so things do get better!  If you'd like to chat, send me a PM.

Best wishes,

Kristen

Hello!!! Just so glad you both got time together...and it sounds like the relationship is "on track"...just hang in there....ok? It will all work out - if it is supposed to be...it will be! You are never alone in this....so...chin up!

Tracy

thanks everyone!! I'm so thankful for all of you guys. I'm glad I've been able to vent, and I'm feeling a little bit better right now. Trying to figure out when we can see each other again. Back to work though so that should hopefully keep me busy now. Thanks again everyone! Was just really disappointed and sad this past weekend

Big hug coming your way. You sound like you have a great attitude. Keep your chin up. Focus on your next meeting, sharpen your Skype/TruPhone/Line2 abilities  and enjoy the moments with friends and family. Example,  I just had the best time literally sitting with my Dad and doing nothing all day. It was great. And I know the opportunities are few for me now.

Big Hugs! Glad you got to spend some time together. Stay strong and pretty soon all this time apart will be a distant memory!
xx

Vent away, that's part of what we're here for!

*hugs* you guys really are awesome! I love this site! I hate feeling like not being able to tell my fam how I feel, they're just like oh you'll see each other again, but they don't seem to realize how much it bothers me I miss him so much it hurts. And we haven't skyped or really spoken much since he's gotten back and it makes me miss him more. I'm trying to focus on my schoolwork and work, but somehow my mind always strays back to him!