Oh Elizabeth...I'm just half a year behind you! Already "gearing up" for the tumult. Guess I always had it in my head that I would be "established" and reaping the rewards during my 40's. I went through a "nasty" marriage and divorce a few years ago and lost my good credit, my savings, my ability to work (OK, that has been a choice, to not work and pay for daycare for twins with a teacher's salary, thus living below poverty level...of course, I would never "trade" my twins in, but you know what I'm saying).
So, as I approach 40 I am wondering "how did I get here?!" I've been unbelievably blessed with wonderful children that are healthy and talented, and am very happy with myself and can't believe sometimes that on top of everything else, I have reunited with my "other!" (Trying not to get too new-agey and mushy!) But, as far as measuring my life by "world standards," I keep feeling like I haven't done
anything these past 20 years. How did 40 appear? I remember sitting in the tub (in the UK) a few days before turning 39 last March, and I kept doing the math over and over in my head because I was incredulous...really. Very strange feeling.
But, I have seen your pics (you do look very young and vibrant) and you have a job (yeah!!!) and our 40's are going to be our decade, I just know it! Hang in there! (I don't know much of your story, but you mentioned a STB Ex...that has got to be hard too. Having him call probably reminded you of all the special days you two celebrated etc...) Good luck with finding a new place to live and...HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!
