Well its official i just walked in the door to my house from a quick 10day holiday visiting my gf in the UK. Another goodbye, though i feel we handled ourselves well... i think im just too tired to feel the full effects of it. To think this morning i was with her in the UK now the strange feeling of being home, on my bed....was it a dream?
The great part is when u arrive and see each other, the strong feeling of "did i ever leave u?". Airports on the way to see your S/O..amazing..not so much when leaving. I love the feeling of feeling we never parted..picking up where we left off, but hate the feeling of did it happen, was it a dream? even later that day.
Back to reality tomorrow, work, mixed about that. I feel ive been quite positive so far, but its really hard. I know from this deja vu experience the first 1-3 days are the worst, very low, depressing feeling. I know i need to get back into that mindset and keep busy. Its hard sometimes, specially now. Im not sure when exactly next visit is, it just seems like months apart is not the way to be living...i dont like having to get use to living a life apart from hers. Wish these next few months would hurry up and pass, this empty feeling, i want it to pass.
I know some recent posters are in the same spot, and i guess i just wanted to write my thoughts at this current moment. so many thoughts...thank you all for listening.
