Feeling sad...

Feeling sad........

After spending months with fiance in UK, now I am back to my old life in USA.

My dogs isn't with me, their in UK.  They were the one that kept me happy no matter what, I could just hug them but now I can't till I get a visa to UK.

I feel alone, I don't know anyone personally who knows anything about applying for visa.

Every day I spend hours searching online for advise or answers to all my questions/ directions but just having a hard time putting the dots together.  I did, I really did go back and read old post on this site but still can't find the exact answer I need.  Some questions I post are still left un answer on this site.  I don't know what to do, fiance ask me, I don't know what could I tell him, he don't know, the people he ask don't know as well, accountant not giving much help, he have to travel soon and so we are limited in time to get all documents needed.  We just have a few more documents needed but just so un sure of things.  Would it be ok, would it be accepted.  All this doubts.  Adding pressure into our relationship.  

I am unemployed, financially this visa/ extra service is costing a lot for my fiance since he also have other bills to deal with.   Every day I would search for a job but no luck.

I cry every day just feeling sad.  I know crying or feeling sad won't do any good but I am just so stress out.

just sad........
I don't know how can I get through this....
I know deep inside I have to.....
my dogs is in UK waiting for me.......
my fiance is in uk........
my new life is in uk.....
my happiness is in uk.....
all but me......

I am back living my old life until I can get a visa
my dog is not with me
my fiance is not with me
my days is fill with stress, anxiety, pressure ...tears, unable to sleep well
Feels like I fell back into a dark hole......

 

Greenapple, I'm sorry you're feeling so depressed. Most of us know how awful it is to be apart from our partners for long periods of time so we're with you there! Also the visa process is incredibly stressful especially when you have tons of questions but no answers. If you ask your questions on this forum, they will be answered so at least you can get some help with that and relieve some of your anxiety.

Thanks,

I just feel like I am annoying people by asking questions over and over.   I really don't mean to do so.  I did search the old post on this site but just couldn't figure out the answers I need to help my fiance to get the documents.  We are starting to understand the basics but just getting them, we are struggling.  It's just frustrating, fiance made calls to inquired about documents needed but basically got a I don't know what you need, can't give you anything from those people.  

Just stuck......

Fiance is stress, feeling sick and overwhelm with work, mortgage to pay, bills to pay, travel plans and then this visa.....

Our relationship went from happy happy, seeing each other, spending time with the dogs to this.....alone, apart and stress.......

It seems straight forward, visa process, just as long as I follow the steps, get all we need but I can't even get it started but just stuck with getting all the documents needed.  I am someone who double/triple check if it is really the correct documents, he is just borderline frustrated trying to get it.

I just can not deal with not being after to go to UK after I had apply and submitted everything.  I don't want to go through this process again.  It's like do or die, not really die but it feels like it.  Emotionally, mentally and financially would be too much if this visa don't go smoothly.

A hole in my chest......
All I can do is, look at the pictures of my dogs before I sleep.
It's a weird feeling that I once was with my fiance and my dogs, now I am not for the time being.

It seems straight forward, visa process, just as long as I follow the steps, get all we need but I can't even get it started but just stuck with getting all the documents needed.

It IS straight forward. Really it is.  I think you are freaking out and making it much harder than it is.

This is the best list out there and the one that many use as a reference: http://londonelegance.com/transpondia/fiance/