Had an oncologist appointment yesterday. We talked about next steps and confirmed scan dates. She said she will be shocked if the scans show anything other than outstanding results. She does not recommend surgery, but said it would be done if other areas are shrinking and the breast is not. Same with radiation. Focus is on the systemic, whole body treatment until the body directs otherwise. She said I’ll continue with the injections for years. And she clarified that by years she means “years and years”. She went on to say that she has a few patients with liver metastasis who are 15 years plus since diagnosis and she fully expects me to be sitting across from her in 15 years time. It was a good day. It’s a very good day.
Right now I’m sitting in the chair having my final round of chemo.
After my first round, I genuinely didn’t think I’d be able to do this. Six cycles seemed an enormous mountain to climb. I couldn’t understand how others have done it and felt very defeated.
I am so proud that I have done this. I know the next week (potentially two) will suck. But, you guys, I’ve done it. I have *bleep*ing done it. I didn’t think I could. I don’t care if this sounds arrogant to self indulgent. I didn’t think I was strong enough.
I hope and pray none of you, or the people you love ever have to have chemo. It truly sucks. I am forever grateful for this incredible treatment that is going to help give me my life back (though a big pivot). But chemo is over. At least for now. If the disease progresses, I’ll be doing it again. I do not believe this will be my only chemo experience.
But I am proud of myself. I am more in love with my husband than ever. He has said all the right things during this journey. He has believed in me. He is my perfect match.
Our children are everything to us. To know I may see them become adults is such a gift. I never could have imagined that I could have a man like him and children like ours, which is why I don’t want to miss it all! I had so much fear that the cancer was caught that they’d say it was too late. I know we have all experienced that and I thought that would be me. Beyond grateful that I’ve been treatable.
You guys have no idea how much the support here as meant. You are the best!!
