I'm going through an emotional rollercoaster now that my parents have left. I wanted to be happy (DH was thrilled... lol) and we got to go back to sleep in our own bed at long last, and that's all great... plus we got letters from the redundancy payment office and all of that is finally sorted and things are really looking up for us now. But that fight I had with my mom last weekend was terrible, and I feel horrible about it, even though it wasn't exactly my fault -- she was ignoring my stepson all weekend when he was trying so hard to be nice and I was so proud of him for being sweet but so disappointed in her for taking so little interest in him after making a big deal out of meeting him, so I had a dig at her about not going to the park with him when he asked her to, but then she blew up at me like tenfold and set off a chain of events that I couldn't even go into if I wanted to and then I ended up saying horrible things to her that I didn't really mean. I apologized, but all she said was "It's no big deal" and then everything went back to "normal." I guess I just wish for once that she would have also apologized for her part in things and had a heart to heart with me or something, and I tried to mention it a few times and get conversations going and she just ignored me. But I let it go and we had a great week after that. And DSS was with us for a few hours yesterday and she actually interacted with him and stuff. And then she cried at the airport this morning and was hugging me so tight, and I didn't cry then, but now I feel like I want to cry. I suddenly feel so depressed and don't know exactly why - like if its because they have left and I will miss them, or because they came and it was a bit turbulent and I'm disappointed about the huge fight that I will always remember now, or because it's all over, or what. I hate feeling like this when I should be feeling positive about all the good news and excited about starting work on Monday, which is what I expected to feel.

Sorry for rambling. Guess I just needed to get it off my chest.
