Fairytales

I am so sorry that you feel that way, but as others said, you did what was right for you and it is brave and courageous, even though somedays being those things just sucks!  I do hope you feel better soon, and well, I guess you never know what life holds for you around the next curve.  As for his not sending you anything, maybe you hurt him that bad too, and he just doesn't know how to respond except for to push the hurt away.  I really am sorry that you are so sad.  I hope you do keep in touch with people here and let us know how you are doing and what you are up to soon.  You're contributions here are valued.  I can understand if it is too painful though. 

...part Two...

When you said you just wanted to hear from him...

With CJ...my ex-best friend/writing partner...I have heard from him like 3 or 4 times since then...always me IMing him. I felt like I needed answers...closure. It left me so frustrated. I probably imagined everything...another woman...he couldn't handle my kids...too much responsibility. In all this time...two years...he never has given me a start answer.

So I have taken the exact opposite tactic with my friends that I burnt. I have remained in contact...offering them answers and closure. I mean how can you say...we were good together...but Paul just loved me more...was willing to risk his heart when I wouldn't give him an inch. One of my friends I met for dinner before I left the US...with Paul's permission. A week later...he broke up with his then girlfriend.

The bottom line...sometimes I think that CJ gave me the greatest gift...silence. Maybe the closure comes not from answers from the past...but actions from the present...future. In other words....maybe he is loving you best by letting go...maybe being friends just doesn't work after all. I know that may hurt worse now.

Thanks again to all of you who have given me support and a "shoulder" right now. It means a lot to me.

Terriponeale, thanks for sharing with me. I am glad you found what's right for you. I appreciate your advice, but advice is really not at all what I was looking for honestly. I didn't even want to share what I have been going through for quite some time. But I have been a part of this forum for over a year and a half and thought I should let people know what's up if I am not around so much anymore. You are telling me about a relationship if I understand correctly in which you communicated with someone for six months and it didn't work out. I am talking about over two years of my life and several visits and me getting attached and falling in love with a man and his two kids. To just walk away and never look back after all we have shared, is just unimaginable to me right now. That's what I meant. Not that I want answers, I don't need answers as I was the one who wrote and answered the question I guess. I just want him to not shut me out and let me know what he is feeling. I still hold out that little bit of hope that I wasn't wrong in falling in love for the first time in my life. Time will tell I guess. Thanks again everyone.

Vent, vent, vent!

Take out the sad songs and let it rip!

Most of us have so been there, too.

Maybe he's not contacting you b/c his pride is hurt.  That is painful, though.  I wish he could have handled it a little better.

 :\\\'(

I don't know you, though I have been on this forum over a year. I've seen your posts, and you seem like a sweet person. I am so sorry that you're going through this very difficult time right now. I can't imagine how you feel, but I hope that somehow things will all work out for the better for you. *hugs*

Very sorry to hear this...

Aw SS, I'm sorry to hear this.  You've made a brave decision.  Take care of yourself. 

Yes, very brave - and sounds like very wise - decision for yourself.
Sorry it hurts so much, but alas, that is how it goes.

Sending you virtual hugs and good thoughts.

(and one day, another fairytale will come along!)

Sending you a...

virtual glass of wine,
bubble bath,
(complete w/rubber duckie, of course!),
stereo w/music of your choosing,
and anything else that may or may not help...

(A juggler?    A big hammer?    A trip to Disneyland?    A nap?  )

Be good to yourself, and feel free to vent anytime!!!

 



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SillySnip, he may have retreated to lick his wounds and come to grips with the situation.  I know I usually retreat when hurt and stay quiet.  He may need some time to think about where his life is going from here.  I'm sorry that both of you are experiencing this pain. 

Aww you guys are great! Managed to get a big smile out of me, wow we are making some progress! Crabbit, you rock lol your virtual array of gifts is great! Thank you all.

I don't know where life will go from here. I honestly didn't want to end things and I still don't. I was just dealing with so much and feeling so alone that I guess my escape was to retreat and just be truly on my own at that moment. Not the best decision based on how I am feeling about it all. I just need to know that my "someone" cares and is there for me when things are falling down around me, and that I can do the same for him. I hope there is some chance that this fairytale will work out somehow. I do believe things worth having are worth fighting for, but I also need to know when I can't fight anymore. Hopefully time will make things more clear. Love is a strange thing isn't it. 

SS, so sorry to hear this....please take care of yourself ... big hugs to you.   

SS,

I'm very sorry for the tough times you are going through right now. Like others I am sending hugs  . It sounds like a good rest in in order. Take care and you have a lot of support here.

Dawn

SillySnip, I admire your courage! I think you are an awesome woman and deserve an equally awesome man to respect that.

Thanks again ladies! Today he pretty much gave me the clue that it is time to just move on. He didn't come right out and say that in his message, but the thought was there. I feel a little better just knowing I guess. No tears today, still sad but I'm gradually feeling better. It still sucks that after two years this is how things ended up with not any more than a few lines on an email but I guess that's how it went. I can't say I won't miss him and the kids, and that it will be easy to move on but I have to do what makes the most sense and he hasn't given me any reason to do otherwise.  It's been a good two years and I'll always have a huge place in my heart for him and the little ones, but I can't hang on forever, even I know that much!