Back from the UK and so sad

Well, I arrived back in Boston late last night after 10 days in England with DB.  And all I want to do is go back.  I cried like a baby before walking through to departures in Heathrow.  Kept telling him, "I have to go now" while continuing to cling to him.  We both were crying and not wanting to let go.  I remember walking away and his hand still holding onto mine until he had to let go, which just caused more tears.  So, I was nice and puffy faced for security.  Once I was on the plane, I couldn't stop the tears.  More of a silent cry but still crying.  He kept saying, "It will be weird when you leave because it just feels so natural having you here."

This time was so much harder than last time.  I feel like I just got my heart ripped out of my chest.  It looks like I will be moving over in December or January so that is a good thing, but, it also depends on DB's career situation (he is in the process of changing careers).  I hate being away from him and I have never in my life loved someone like this.

It just breaks my heart to have to be away from him.  But, he will be here in July and the ticket is already booked.  In the meantime, I am just so sad.     :\\\'(

It always seems to be worse each time!  I'm sorry you had to leave, but it's good you two have a plan to stop the LDR!  I hope you begin to feel better soon.  Just try to keep busy, that can help! *hugs*

This was my last January, I cried the whole way from Heathrow to Harrisburg.  I could barely walk and I had to have someone walk me through security because I was a wreck.  I literally had to push my now husband away and get through security, it is rough and a lot of us have been there.  If you need someone to talk to you can definitly pm me.

I know exactly how you feel. I do the same thing with the "I have to go now" but neither of us letting go of each other. I'm glad you have a plan to end the LDR, it has made things a lot easier for me knowing when it's going to end.

((((hugs))))

Do I ever know that feeling also.  I wish you both the best, and July will be here before you know it.

(((Hugs)))  Oh hon, i know how you feel. I remember crying the entire way through Manchester airport, the entire plane trip back and all the way through O'hare after one visit.  It definitely gets harder after each visit.  I'm glad to see you've got a visit lined up and a possible end in sight for your LDR.  It sucks after having such a great visit and then feeling so sad going home.  Feel free to pm me anytime even if it's just to vent.

Thanks for all the support.     I know that a great deal of the people on this site have experienced this very thing.  I just didn't expect it to get harder every single time we had to say goodbye.  DB said, while at the airport, "I thought it would get easier, but, it doesn't feel like it is."  We had to travel from Leicester to London for me to catch the plane and the trip was fairly silent.  Neither one of us wanted to say anything for fear of losing it.  Just held hands.  At the airport, we sat in one of the cafes outside departures and talked about such insignificant things because neither one of us wanted to face what was about to happen.  He said later that he had to go to the toilet after I walked through departures to gather himself before the drive back to Leicester.  I haven't talked to him since returning, but, we have emailed (we will talk later this week when he doesn't have to be up at the crack of dawn for work) and he told me that his dog is sad because I left. 

I am sure that the tears will subside after a few days, but, it is still so very raw right now.  I have to figure out a way through this and right now, I just can't think of anything.  But, I am so glad I have this board full of understanding people!  And I can't wait for July when I get him for a whole month!

*loads of hugs* I know how that feels. My boyfriend just left here after 3 weeks and when he got into the van to take him to the I just wilted inside. I even kept asking him to stay longer and I would pay for another ticket.  I plan on moving to England this January as well so maybe I will see you at Heathrow! 

Hugs to you Sadb. Thats the thing about the distance~ the leaving never seems to get any easier. I hope July hurries along for you and that you feel a little better everyday.

Blah that takes me back to my last trip. EXACTLY the same. One thing I remember him saying that he'd feel weird/sad driving because I wouldn't be in the car next too him...so sweet.

*Hugs* It does get easier...but It's so hard I know. Hang in there!!!

Ahhh it's so sad but so romantic, you know?!  I think I may have said this to Erika, too, but it sounds just like my & dh 10 years ago! We just found all our love letters & tapes & had a fab time going through them - it brought back so many memories & feelings!

The goodbyes are the worst - but you're in the home stretch now!!

Like others I know what you mean.  I think it gets harder each time because you're just that much more in love, and if you're anything like me, knowing the end is relatively close makes it much harder each time because you're just wishing the end was there already!

One day at a time :-)  Congrats on the plans to move, that must be exciting!!

Awww, I'm so sorry...I know how difficult it is.  I hope the end of the year gets here fast for the both of you.  Stay strong!

Sorry to hear you're going through a rough time.

We only got married last October, but the ldr already feels like a lifetime ago. You will get through it!

(((((((((((((((((( hugs )))))))))))))))) I know just how you feel, I'm the same way when I have to say goodbye to my bf. We always have the tearful goodbyes at the airport. And then I start counting the days till our next visit. That's about the only thing that gets me through our time apart, looking foward to the next time I'll see him.