Awww
I can relate to that.
Oddly enough, I don't cry in the airport, and I go through a long stage of denial before I get depressed. I've gotten together with my boyfriend three times now, and every time I get depressed after we're away from each other; I seem to either feel bored and aimless or completely stressed out to the point where I don't want to do anything. I cry randomly and feel stupid about it. I can't focus on homework or anything else. I go through the motions and do the minimal amount of stuff I have to do, and I don't feel like being around my friends that much. Sometimes I wonder if I'm trying to dissociate myself from my friends or if we're naturally growing apart, but honestly I have trouble feeling close to anyone. I really feel closer to Stuart than to anyone else. There's no one that I want to talk to when I'm upset besides him.
Also, I think the reason I don't cry at the airport is that for some reason I'm really good at "holding it in" in public. It's sort of like when I'm drunk and pretend I'm 100% sober-- maybe not everyone falls for it, but they don't say that they suspect anything. Hmm, that analogy makes me want a drink.
Maybe it's my particular situation, but all I've been able to think about for weeks now is how badly I want to go to Britain. On days when I don't talk to Stuart online I start crying, and when he is there I'll talk for 6 hours at a time and abandon the other things I'm supposed to be doing.
Maybe this has gone too far...
(well, I do have a history of manic depression...)