man, why can't i be famous as the broad who met bono several times instead of the broad whose jaws are falling off?
yep, i'm an expert. been fighting a losing battle for the past 13 years. and i too have given up. after years of treatment & forking out so much money it makes me want to cry, i have decided to treat the symptoms & give up on ever finding any semblance of a cure. my joints won't stop moving, my bite won't stop changing, so i've decided it's futile to fight it.
i'm lucky--i've got a specialist here in the west midlands and one back in chicago. and they work together on my case, because i am a veritable freak of nature. my jaws are actively necrotising--the bones are actively dying in my skull. this means that, eventually (no one can predict when) i'm either going to lock shut or have a free-swinging mandible. it will change the shape of my face. i'm gonna be a fun case study some day. they can't stop it, they can't cure it, they can't even successfully treat it. i've been through splint after splint, total bite reconstruction involving extensive dental work, heavy medication--everything but surgery.
i've got scrips for flexeril (a muscle relaxer), celebrex, and vicoprofin for when the pain is unbearable & i want to temporarily die. my specialist in the states writes the scrips for flexeril & vicoprofin, my mom fills them & ships them over to me when i'm running low. totally illegal, but ask me if i care. nothing i can get here touches the excruciating pain when i go into spasm.
i'm six months pregnant now and haven't taken any meds other than paracetamol since july. fortunately, the joints loosen up a bit with pregnancy, and i think this is working to my advantage. i do sleep with a night guard in, which my specialist over here made for me. i go back every few months to have it readjusted because my bite is constantly changing. my specialist normally charges £150 per visit, but has very kindly agreed to treat the tmj symptoms at no cost while i am eligible for free dental.
this disease has affected every aspect of my life. it has made me familiar with what i believe has got to be the most unbearable pain known to the human body. it has made me pray to die.
but it's also put me into a unique position to potentially help other people who suffer with it.
i found my specialist through a list of uk-based tmj society members, which was given to me by my american specialist. i'll be happy to email the list to you if you'd like, just let me know.