It just kinda happened... Nothing ceremonial, just signed some papers at the office. No one really cared or even said congratulations (who can blame them, really?). It was kinda like renewing the stickers on your license plates!
No pictures, no great story to tell. But, its done and we both feel the better for it (eventhough it doesnt seem like anything has changed yet, of course.)
The "plan" (which I put in quote b/c it can change so easily and so many times) is to have a real wedding in England in about 2 years or so, which I imagine would be more exciting than actually getting married
Because of a host of reasons, I wont be applying for my visa for a few months (probably September) and wont be moving until the end of the year, but this was most likely the last time he will be in America before then, so thats why we made it official.
I am so overcome by bittersweet emotions right now that I kind of feel numb if that makes any sense. I almost dont know HOW to feel. I now have a husband who I love more than anything, but still cant be with him... and somehow the need/desire/desperation to be with him seems stronger than before. He leaves in 8 hours (and I'm at work for about another 1.5 of those hours) and then its back to being lonely again and I can physically feel my heart aching already. On top of everything else, it makes me feel so weak and I wish I was "better" at this than I am. I know that its only 5 or 6 weeks until I see him again, but 5 days seems too long right now, and then I know that in 5 or 6 weeks after those 6 days spent together, then I have to go thru all of this again. Its a cycle that never seems to end and its tearing me apart!