Hi ladies! I promise I've been keeping up with posts, I'm just SUPER busy at the moment, as are the rest of you, it seems!
I can't believe how busy the next three days are. Tonight was spent in the kitchen baking, tomorrow will be cooking/my family coming over/going to mass. Christmas will be spent with my mom's side of the family, and the next day I LEAVE FOR IRELAND!
Last night I had a total meltdown about going to Ireland. I'm just starting to really worry.
Last summer, my boyfriend and I had three months together and everything was PERFECT. I felt like I had gotten to know him so much better than I ever did, just by spending so much time with him. Me being a shy person, it was lovely to finally have my wall come down and be able to open up to him, and him to me. And now so many things have changed in the past few months. His father died about three months ago, and I have been completely overwhelmed by school and work and my family. We've been having at least weekly heated arguments, and unfortunately, I've kind of gotten used to being on my own again. I just really am not looking forward to getting used to being with him again, and then two weeks later feeling alone and confused. Or even worse, getting to Ireland and realizing that we're not in the same place relationship-wise that we were when I left in August.
Ugh. I don't really remember what the point of this post was. I'm freaking out, basically. I want and need these next two weeks to be PERFECT, and I'm terrified that things aren't going to be like they were during the summer...
I'd appreciate some happy thoughts being sent my way. And also, everyone have a GREAT Christmas, no matter who you're spending it with!
