Seems for the past few years around this time I start to feel sad and stressed about the upcoming holidays. Don't get me wrong, I do love Christmas and the nice parts of this time of year. What gets me down is being alone for yet another Christmas, and then just the general stress of gift giving. Worrying about money and if my gifts will be liked by the receivers, fearing they may just be a waste of money that is tight to begin with. Every year I wish Christmas didn't have to be so commercial, but it really is. Think about it, what's usually the first thing people ask after the holidays.. "what did you get for Christmas?" I get so tired of hearing that.
I love Christmas songs, decorating the tree, holiday treats, time spent with loved ones, Christmas cards and taking my gram to church every Christmas Eve. I love the feeling when you know someone really enjoys the gift you tried so hard to make perfect for them. I love watching the Grinch ( the original one) and all the holiday classics. I just don't love feeling so alone, or so broke I guess.
Haven't even been able to do any shopping except for my bf and his family and my mom. That too stresses me out, but need to wait for payday to get anything else now.. need to just listen to Christmas music and chill out I think.. ha rant over now.