Worse Than An IA

Hugs to you BD.
Chary, sorry to hear of your loss.

I'm so sorry everyone, although nothing I've been through lately compares, all this bad news in my life is starting to take a toll, I've just learned (via facebook) that a very good friend of mine from school succumbed to their heroin addiction a few months back.

With the news about J from my work and poor dear Rob, I feel very sad right now, all of this waste of precious life, suicide and self destruction. :/

BD, I just had a little cry after reading your and Aless' posts. Probably because I've been listening to Brandi Carlile and thinking about my friend Cam, who committed suicide a while back now, she's the one who I just can't get out of my head her number is still on my phone, her pictures in my flat, her voice in my head, how can she be gone? I google her sometimes, and there's a random interview with her in a local paper about how she's learning how to dive, I've read it 50 times.

I'll never forget her, but it does get easier to deal with, day to day.

I really disconnected with most of my school friends after Cam, I can't be where I grew up, it's so destructive, such a sad place for me, but in some ways I think I have survivors guilt because I got out, went to university, had a life and didn't get dragged into drugs and cheap alcohol.

I didn't mean to make this post about me either - sorry



I don't hang around that place no more
I'm tired of wearing circles in the floor
And I don't carry myself very well
But I've gotten so much braver,
Can you tell?

I'm happy, can't you see?
I'm all right, but I miss you, Amber lee

And I lined my secrets up all one by one
I put em all away when I was done
And I would really love to hear your voice sometime
To close a little distance in my mind

So sorry, cheesebiscuit.

“If I should go before the rest of you
Break not a flower nor inscribe a stone,
Nor when I'm gone speak in a Sunday voice
But be the usual selves that I have known.
Weep if you must,
Parting is hell,
But life goes on,
So sing as well.” -- Joyce Grenfell.

This was read at E's funeral by one of her best friends.

I have just caught up with this thread, and I'm feeling so sad for those of you suffering loss and grief.  :\\\'(  I'm sending a hug and a hope for gradual healing of broken hearts.

My foster kitty somehow escaped the house (she's indoor-only) and got hit by a car.   They took her to the vet, but she had to be put down.

RIP Lucy.  2005(?)-2009.

*squeezes everyone*

My foster kitty somehow escaped the house (she's indoor-only) and got hit by a car.   They took her to the vet, but she had to be put down.

RIP Lucy.  2005(?)-2009.

Oh, I'm so sorry!  :\\\'(

My foster kitty somehow escaped the house (she's indoor-only) and got hit by a car.   They took her to the vet, but she had to be put down.

RIP Lucy.  2005(?)-2009.

So sorry to hear this!  :\\\'(

My foster kitty somehow escaped the house (she's indoor-only) and got hit by a car.   They took her to the vet, but she had to be put down.

RIP Lucy.  2005(?)-2009.

Oh, that is so sad.  We've had two "Lucy"s in the past.  Hugs.

I've had numbness in my fingers for a few days... I have bad circulation so I assumed it would just go away. but now it's spread down both of my hands all the way to the wrist. and I freaked out and decided to walk over to the doctor to see if they'd take me, and on the way i started going numb in my back and midsection. I was so scared that I started crying when I was telling the receptionist what was wrong... They asked me to come back at 5:30 but I'm debating going to the hospital now.

I'm so scared. I have some feeling in my hands, but very weak...

You could try phoning NHS Direct, they'll advise what to do.
http://www.nhsdirect.nhs.uk/

I hope it's nothing serious.

Thank you, Leah. I called NHS direct and spoke to a nurse and she said that I should just keep my appointment. So I just have to wait it out for a couple of hours...

Thanks for your concern. I will keep you posted.

Thank you, Leah. I called NHS direct and spoke to a nurse and she said that I should just keep my appointment. So I just have to wait it out for a couple of hours...

Thanks for your concern. I will keep you posted.

Oh no... that does sound scary. Hope everything is going to be allright and you start feeling better soon. Definitely keep us posted. ((HUGS))

Thank you, Leah. I called NHS direct and spoke to a nurse and she said that I should just keep my appointment. So I just have to wait it out for a couple of hours...

Thanks for your concern. I will keep you posted.

Hope you are feeling better soon!

Thanks guys... I'm waiting for my appointment, but if I sit still too long I freak myself out So I'm trying to cook and stuff to get my mind off of it. dunno what else to do...