Hello all. I've been lurking for ages and have learned tons of great things! But now I'm wondering if I can get some advice that is unique to my situation.
In a nutshell, I'm a (very soon to be) 24 year old data processor stuck in a 4 year rut. I dropped out of school in 2010 because of some anxiety issues and an abusive relationship. It was awful and I'm not sure if I have totally recovered from it yet. My plan was to go back to school after getting my head together (1 year - TOPS) but I was later informed about a huge chunk of withdrawal fees I'd have to pay before I could even think about going to school again. School is and was probably the most important thing to me. Going back is my number one priority in life.
So for the past 4 years I have been working crappy office jobs, scraping together money, and living with my parents. It hasn't been fun and my depression has gotten pretty bad. But I finally paid off those withdrawal fees last fall, which was a huge accomplishment. Now my plan is to go back to school - specifically in the UK. It's ambitious and totally out of character for me but here are, put very briefly, my reasons:
-The US education methods don't really work in my favor. When I was young I had to transfer schools (and was even kicked out of one) because I was so unchalleneged that they labeled me as a "gifted underachiever." Rote learning simply does not benefit me in any way. I know that not all universities in the US use this method but let's be honest - the majority of them do, especially the affordable state universities. If I want a higher quality education that doesn't feel like an extension of high school, I'd have to pay out the wazoo. I've read a lot about the structure of university in the UK and it's much more appealing.
-I'm planning on going to school to be...an illustrator. (I know, I know...but no tutting, please.
) After going changing majors constantly (English, Anthropology, even Mortuary Science), I finally realized that art has been the one constant in my life and it's the one thing I'm actually pretty ok at. And art school in the US tends to (inexplicably) cost upwards of $40k per year, which is just bonkers. Plus, I've found some great illustration courses in the UK and already have offers from 3 of them and 1 more pending.
-I just like the UK. I've spent a lot of time there, met a lot of great people there, and of course...it doesn't hurt that someone very dear to me happens to live there.
Financially, when I work it all out in my head, the UK seems to be the cheaper (and shorter, which also contributes to cheapness) option for what I want to do and the kind of education I want to receive. I'm very frugal, good with money, and pretty good at keeping my feet on the ground. I'd like to fund the education through federal and private loans; I know it's not ideal and I'm no stranger to debt but I have high hopes for being able to supplement things like cost of living, etc. by working part time. I spoke with an Across The Pond advisor who told me many of her advisees work and have no trouble with it. I'm hoping this will be an option since I'm a hard worker and have a pretty solid professional background. Though I'd happy scrub toilets for 20 hours a week if need be.
There are a lot more details I could go into but I will spare you (unless you ask!) because basically what I'd like to know is - do I sound crazy? Does this seem like a really irrational step to take? I pride myself on being realistic and rational about my plans but I want to make sure I'm not deluding myself. I'm just worried that if I don't take a flying leap now I will be stuck in the rut forever. I need to start living my life and chasing things I want.
I'm already well into the process of making this happen. I've thought everything through, run the numbers in my head, fought with myself, etc. But I'd still like some input from OUTSIDE of my own head.