My kids will be the only kids on the planet who has grandparents that live less than 10 miles away who CHOOSE not to be with them on Christmas.
I'm sorry to learn that your in-laws didn't turn out to be the grandparents you had hoped for your kids.
The role of grandparents is foreign to me. All four of my grandparents grew up in small villages in Mexico and were farm laborers and lived in harsh times and conditions so they were quite "old" to me. To be fair, my paternal grandfather was born in 1889 and the others in 1910 so by the time I arrived in 1970, I had limited time with them. They all died by the time I turned nine (I also lost my mother when I was 10). My four grandparents had 17 children between them and I was one of 73 grandchildren (yes, I have 72 first cousins). So, I have little memories of them as I was one of so many so the stereotype of grandma doting on her grandchildren didn't apply to us.
My son made me a grandmother at age 41. My youngest child was 11. To say I was not happy at the news is an understatement. But she's now five and a sweet little girl and her twin brothers are extremely cute. I can't say that I know how to act "grandmotherly" in the classic TV sense. In fact, my son yelled at me recently and accused me of not being the grandmother he "expected". I know I love and adore those children but I can't possibly know what he "expects" if he doesn't lay out what his expectations actually are and I also have my personality that's far different from what I perceive as his "expectation".
I'm guessing that he wants me to act like my MIL who absolutely dotes on him and his siblings. That's her personality and she's lovely but I am nothing like her and I never will be. If I started acting like her now, I wouldn't be my authentic self. I show affection in completely different ways. I asked my son what he meant by "grandmotherly" but he replied that I should just "know". I don't unless it's pointed out. In my head, I'm a good person but apparently it's not enough for my son.
Perhaps KFdancer, you should have a heart-to-heart with your in-laws and actually tell them how you're feeling and be specific about what you want them to do to show affection that satisfies you and your husband. They may change a little bit and you'll make a sort of compromise but you'll need to be prepared that that they may not. So, give your voice, make your peace and then let it go.
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