Welcome to the forum, Amanda
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I am a hard worker and I worked my butt of for 2 years to be able to be in this country right now. And I will do whatever it takes in order for me to do it again.
I was in a similar position to you about 15 years ago, but the opposite way around. I'm British and I had always wanted to live in the US (my aunt lives there) and got the opportunity by spending a study abroad year there during my undergraduate degree.
I went back to the UK after that year, finished my degree, took a year out, gained a masters in the UK, and then I applied for a PhD in the US, at the same university I attended on study abroad (one of the professors had mentioned grad school when I was there previously).
So, there I was, making a more 'permanent' move to the US, like I'd always dreamed of. The problem was... living there long-term was nothing like living there on a study abroad year.
The study abroad year was filled with making friends and experiencing college life and travelling as much as I could, whereas the PhD was a dose of real life. Despite already having spent about 18 months in the US previously, I ended up realising that during the study abroad year I had seen America through rose-tinted glasses... I had basically just been a tourist, and the reality was that I didn't really like it all that much... at least not in an every day, real world, real job sort of way. I just wasn't happy there - I ended up sticking it out for 8 months and then I moved back to the UK in the summer.
It's been almost 10 years since then and I haven't regretted it for a second. I now have a career I love in the UK (in a completely different field to my degrees), I get to travel loads with my job (including the US, I've lived in 5 countries on 5 continents since 2008) and I've made some amazing friends... none of which would have happened if I'd stayed in the US.
Not trying to be discouraging, but I just thought it was worth mentioning that actually living in the UK properly on long-term basis, is not going to be the same as experiencing the UK while on a temporary, short-term visa where you still have a life to go back to in the US.
My mother doesnt like that I may do this. She is judgmental and has never left North America, hell shes lived in a 20 mile bubble her entire life. I already know my career goals will take me thousands of miles away from home, and maybe to the UK. I am not "UK or bust". I can work in America if I have to. but my mom always makes me feel guilty and emotionally blackmails me so it is difficult.
Sorry to hear that
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My mum was supportive of me moving away (her sister is the one who lives in the US), but she didn't tell me until after I decided to move home that she wished I had never gone. At the time she didn't want to influence my decision about whether to stay there or not, but I was kinda annoyed when I found out because if she had just told me that to start with, it would have made my decision to come home so much easier!