Welcome (only seeing this thread sorry!). I am sorry things have played out for you the way they have.
I think a few other people have already touched upon it but if you're afraid of making a mistake, leave the door wide open for a return. Don't sell all your assets you can't easily recover until you know for sure you want to be here permanently.
In my opinion, which I know won't mean much, the only opportunity you are at risk of regretting will probably be not giving it a go. You may end up wondering "what if I had just...". If you have very few possessions, it'll make it even easier to up and go (there and back if you find you don't like it). if you have a few things that are too big to move right away and you don't want to sell them, put them in storage or ask if there's a person you trust that can hang on to them for a period of time. If you do move over, nothing is set in stone if you change your mind. Of course it could be a fair amount of money out the window, but that would be the worst case scenario.
Thank you for the feedback.
I really don't have any "stuff", other than a pickup truck, two motorcycles, and a bunch of firearms that I had bought to leave for my kids. With the way things seem to be going, all of those things will probably be sold off and the proceeds split. My neighbor has already expressed interest in buying my mobile home, and it would be easy to sell anyway.
With that, the only thing I will have left to move, is my dog and some clothes.
You've touched on the real issue for me:
"what if I had just..."I gave up a lot for my family, both professionally and personally. I had a lot of opportunities made available to me, and turned them down because of family.
I even had some extraordinary women express interest in me over the years, and I have always turned them away without question. i never thought of leaving my wife and kids, and always put them before myself.
now that I have been betrayed by those I did my best to take care of, I want to try to "live" again.
I don't know if making such a drastic change would jump start it for me. but I need to do something.
I think my biggest hurdle would be finding a reasonable place to live. I should have about $60-70,000 of cash when all is said and done, and about $2,200-2,500 per month from my retirement income. not a lot, but it will be just me.