Agree with balmerhon's response. Andrea, you're just about to embark on what IS going to be an enormous change -- and for me, it's been (simultaneously) crazy & wonderful & horrible & stressful & incredible & fascinating & overall just an experience that I wouldn't trade for the world. I still feel like smacking my Steve sometimes though, because he really doesn't *get* it -- what it's like to do this, and particularly what it's like to have given up the life that I had in Fla with which I was reasonably confident & content. He's very much into 'don't overanalyse things -- just accept them as they are -- get on with the business at hand -- avoid pfaffing about with feelings, etc' -- not sure if that's an English thing, or a man thing, or both?
Right now, I'm feeling down & homesick -- having just got back from our latest trip to the States. Family visits I can generally handle alright -- though visiting my mom is usually sad...but I *always* always always cry when I have to leave Florida again (I was sobbing violently in the taxi to the airport when I moved away 'for good') -- the sunny weather & warm temps plus loads of good friends there who I came to see as 'family'. This time, we drove down to Tampa Bay & back from Atlanta -- so there I was blubbering at the wheel, driving up I-75 -- through two heavy downpour thunderstorms, no less!! Ack. And coming back to cloudy grey, rain & 55 degree F temps here in Leeds. :\\\'( (I'm a very weather sensitive person.) I'm still trying to work through it & don't know what's worse -- not going to visit & missing everyone endlessly, or going to visit & then feeling like this when I get home.
I am confident that things will get better once I start working.
My new employer is waiting on one of my references to come back, and then we will agree on a start date, so hopefully that will be before the end of June. I am anxious to get back to work -- for the social aspect primarily -- being able to meet people, getting out of the house for a specified reason every day, stuff like that. Also, Steve & I plan to do some hiking this weekend as long as the weather improves.
Take heart that I will be very nearby to you when you come over. So if you're struggling or worried about getting in Steve's hair or whatever -- really you are welcome here anytime and I'm just a quick phone call away. Or you can come into Leeds & meet me for lunch or just whatever suits you.