Not sure where to start, I actually feel kind of weird doing this, but I feel this is the best place to start/vent, maybe get some advice, words of encouragement, or whatever. So here it goes. My story starts out on March 9th 2012. I (boy) live in washington state, she (girl) lives in the UK. I reluctantly met a girl through an iPhone app game. It started in a chat room. What first started as light banter, eventually escalated into private messages and eventually Skype. The light banter found way to meanings of life conversations, beliefs of God, political structure and how it affects the commons as well as cowboys, ninjas, lasers and smoke machines to boot. I felt like I had found a connection with someone, one I had not been able to find where I live. This feeling I had, eventually grew so strong by July, that it compelled me to travel 5000 miles to visit this girl. The only thing that trip did was make me realize my heart was in another country other than my own, and the feeling was mutual. After meeting her face to face, and spending physical time with her other than online, the term "live in a cardboard box" came to mind. Because it did not matter if I lived in a cardboard box, for if I was with her, that was home for me. So it did not matter whether if I was washing dishes at a restaurant, or a CEO of a corporation, I did not care what I did, as long as I could see her everyday. Now I'm not a slouch, or a lazy person. I bought a house at the age of 23. I have been in the telecommunications industry for 15 years, and recently got a new job as a Data Center Facilities Engineer. So it's not like I'm going to just sit on my laurels. I'm a go getter, and I've succeeded in most everything I've set my mind too, except uk immigration. I would travel to the other side of globe for this girl, drop my house, drop my job, give up possession, leave with the shirt on my back, warmth in my heart and ambition at my fingertips, but its all for not because boarders separate us. Wanting to learn more about what it would take to bring us together I hired a lawyer to look up info on immigration to the uk. Low and behold the lawyer pretty much found what I did. Fat chance of moving there, even if a person marries another, it is difficult.This still has not stopped us from spending hours on skype, her until the mid afternoon hours, and we try to maintain contact thru skype IM as much as possible. But lately (september) the girl just started her first year of uni and now is seeing the "world". It is hard for us to find time to spend communicating as I live in Seattle, and there is an 8 hour difference. Plus she has a social life there and is meeting new people and going out. Pile on top of that her essays that she has to write for her course work, she only has a finite amount of time for us. I love this girl with all my soul, and she exclaims the same. But it's times like these where it's difficult, the phantom arm affect i guess. I use to be able to scratch my arm, (talk endless hours with her over the summer) now I can't. Her and I want this to work, and my stomach ties in knots imagining a life without her. But it's just hard to endure times like now. The girl is coming over for new years and I plan on taking her to meet the parents and all that good stuff, it's just hard right now, and I needed to vent.
