Oh lordie, you are not alone!!! I was all over the place!!!! Unfortunately, after having the baby, I was even worse. P.P.D. set in, and my hubby was just the best thing. Everything was so unfamiliar to me, my life took a total u-turn, and I didn't know who I was anymore. But my son is two now, and he's the best thing that ever happened to me. Somehow, it all goes away.......and I just concentrate on him. Get through it, it's worth it, no matter how you feel right now. As the saying goes, And this too shall pass..............