I'm so very sorry to hear it, Courtney. *squeezes*
I've just come from the visitation for the father of a good friend from high school - he passed away suddenly whilst at church on Sunday, and though the rest of his family is still local, Lauren's had to travel down here from her home in Michigan by herself, and cope with all the things that have cropped up along the way. She's not in very good shape at the moment, as I'm sure you might imagine. And it's definitely made the rest of us painfully aware that our parents are getting older - her father was only 54, though! - and I just keep thinking that we're too young for this cycle to already be starting, too young to be adults helping each other cope with the loss of a parent.
Sorry to run off on a tangent here, but your post just struck a chord with me - first or not, I don't think it ever gets any easier.