Hopster, I totally relate. I've been melancholy for as long as I can remember. I won't get into my childhood. A lot of people on here don't like me, which is fine, although everyone who knows me considers me a happy, witty person. Ultimately, the only opinion that matters is the opinion you have of yourself. Just know you're not alone. I'm the proverbial sad clown. (My post is overlapping someone else's.)