I'm just miserable

I have been completely miserable & frustrated since I got back from the UK.  I hate being here, I'm hating my job and frustrated at my friends and family. 

Robert said to me the other night that he wasn't sure if work was making him miserable or the fact that I'm gone.  Of course I know it's because I'm gone!

We had such an amazing 3 weeks and it was sad that it had to end and I had to come back, but we are at this crossroad again and I hate it! 

This is the longest I have ever looked for a job and NOT been able to find one.  I'm ready to just give up! 

I've stayed off of UKY for a while because it makes me so sad and a little jealous.  I'm so happy for everyone and their planning, but I just feel like I have nothing to look forward to and nothing to plan.  Our work schedules are so crazy the next few months, I have no idea when we are going to see each other again. BLAH, BLAH WAH!   :\\\'(

I'm sorry I'm whining...I just needed a little vent to those that would understand my frustration.  No one here seems to understand why I'm unhappy.  Yes I did just have a 3 week vacation but I left the one person that "gets" me 3500 miles away - I think I'm allowed to be a little sad! So I've been keeping to myself mostly.  I'm a big bummer - I barley like hanging out with myself!

I know I should focus on the fun we had and stay optimistic, but sometimes it's just hard. (vent over)

I know exactly how you feel, my boyfriend came over for 2 weeks around Christmas and we are both going through the same thing. It sucks, especially when your time together does nothing but validate all of the feelings you have already had and make you want to be together that much more.

I think I read that you and Robert had a plan for if you still weren't able to get a job. Do you still have that plan? Are you going to be able to do that? Am I remembering correctly when I think you wanted to get over there first on your own through work permit rather than marriage?

It's so hard to focus on other things, if not impossible. Especially when you feel so helpless because you know you are doing everything you possibly can. It's one of the worst feelings when legal stuff gets in the way of being with someone we love so much.

I know there's really nothing we can do to help you out, but I just wanted to reassure you that you aren't alone. I hope you are able to work out a solution soon. If you need to just vent or talk with someone who's going through it right now too, you can PM me.

Ugh!  I'm so sorry to hear you are going through this.  It totally sucks!  I remember when dh and I first started dating (we'd met in person, but did not start dating until I left England), and I didn't know when I'd get to see him again.  Everything seemed like it was on a wing and a prayer then!  Hold on.  The ride may suck at the moment, but it may be all worth it in the end! 

I can't wait until you two are able to make your final plan.  I can't believe the absolute pressure you must feel, knowing that things rely on you getting a job and that jobs are just so difficult to find.  I don't know what to say, other than just keep looking.  At some point your luck has to change.   

Mekaw, I was wondering where you were, how your trip was!  I'm sorry that your plans aren't coming together as well as you thought.  I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.  When it's meant to happen, it WILL happen!

Thanks Ladies.
I'm better.  I think it was a little pmt/pms mixed into my feelings. 

I know it will work out.  It's just frustrating and I need to get over that.  The funny thing is I'm putting all the pressure on myself on finding a job.  I know if I had a visa it would be easier (employers have told me this).  I have found a few open positions and have gotten responses, but they are unable to sponsor so they just tell me to contact them once I have the proper papers.  That's what's the most frustrating!!

I had a great trip!  I think that's why it's been so hard to be back.