Back from visiting DB in UK and depression sets in...

First, I had a wonderful time visiting DB and it was the longest we have spent together.  I was there from 6/2 through 6/10.  I was on a business trip, but DB and I spent everyday together, since we work for the same holding company.

On to what this topic is really about....I noticed that this time when I was leaving, I wasn't as upset as usual, but I think it is b/c I have trained myself to not let the water works go at the airport and I was going home to my 23 mo daughter, which I was extremely excited about!  Well, when I got home, any doubt that I had that I was getting used to being away from DB was put at bay. 

It seems every time I return from a trip to visit DB, I go into a depressive state for the few days after.  I am not normally a depressed person, but the depression I feel when I return is overwhelming, to say the least.  It's a horrible feeling.  I lose all motivation to do anything and I find that I do things like cleaning to occupy me and make me feel like I have some sort of control over the situation.  I didn't go to work yesterday, b/c of the way I felt.  I am back at work today, but still feel depressed.  Ugh, I hate this feeling. 

Not sure what I am looking for in responses...just really needed to talk to someone about it that could possibly relate.

I can totally relate!  But, I lose it at the airport.  Poor DF loses it at the airport too.  But, he seems to get himself together some how and doesn't have the debilitating "missing me" feelings like I have for him.  I think that just comes down to man vs woman.

But, vent away!  I will listen!

((((((((((((((((((( hugs )))))))))))))))) I know just how you feel, I'm sorry that you're so down and missing him right now   I always feel the same way after I visit my bf, and it seems each time we say goodbye it just gets harder and harder   usually it takes planning our next visit to get me to really cheer up again.

Yep!  I definitely was sad after leaving my now dh's when we were dating!  I can totally relate.  Please feel free to vent.  I think many of us have an understanding of how you are feeling now!  *hugs*

I  completely understand. I try not to cry at the airport too and I have become more used to the distance as well, but have the same problem with being down when I come back, or he leaves. You aren't alone!

Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt....

We were in an LDR for over 2.5 years.  Even though we're together now, we both have very real memories of what those goodbyes were like!  :\\\'(

I can relate.  I've started to do the bulk of my crying hours before BF and I leave each other at the airport.  By the time we make it to the airport, there seems to be fewer tears left to shed.  But, definitely, it gets harder and harder to leave each other as time goes on.

I'm sorry you are having a hard time. I understand how hard this part is, I've done more than my fairshare of crying when time together comes to a close. I hope you start feeling better very soon, and can look forward to the next airport "hello" and put the goodbye out of your mind.

Thanks for all of your responses.  It's nice to know that I am not the only one that is going through or has gone through this.  I feel much better today.  Went for a run yesterday, which always makes me feel better.  Now I am counting down to when he visits @ the end of June. 

Thanks for all of your responses.  It's nice to know that I am not the only one that is going through or has gone through this.  I feel much better today.  Went for a run yesterday, which always makes me feel better.  Now I am counting down to when he visits @ the end of June. 

End of June? That's not long at all! It's only 2 weeks 1 day to the 28th (That's when my DB moves over) and that's in the end of June. 

Ya, I know it's not long.  I found out yesterday he is coming next Friday, 6/22, so it is sooner than I thought.  He is only coming for a few days though, but better than nothing.  He will be back again @ the end of July, for my daughter's 2nd birthday and then I am in the UK in August. 

I know that I get to see him more often than most in a LDR, but I still go through the depression when he leaves or I leave him.