Going a bit mental

Dave went back to Edinburgh yesterday; I was rubbish in the airport as always, but I'm usually okay by the time I get home an hour and a half later. That doesn't seem to be the case this time, though. I was feeling okay, but when I walked into the bedroom and I realised that I'd be sleeping alone, I just lost it. He left his dressing gown here because he didn't have enough room in his case, so I wrapped up in it, crawled into [his side of the] bed, turned the telly to World Poker Tour [which I absolutely LOATHE, but he watched religiously while he was here], and cried myself to sleep.

I've NEVER been like this about us being apart before. I mean, I've been upset and cried for a while, but I've spent most of today crying. It's freaking my dad out because it's not like me to act this way, but it all comes unbidden. I don't know what to do. *sniffle*

 

aww it'll be okie...trust me.

I did the same it's been little over a week since adam left. He left his body wash and shampoo in the shower and everytime I take a shower I find myself sniffing at the bottle and tearing up. The first night home after he left I slept on his side of the bed and just smelled his pillow and cried myself to sleep.

You'll be okie...just give yourself a few days to recoop.

If you need to talk let me know! I have msn and of course myspace which you already know.

Sorry it's so bad this time captainmoofish It's weird how different visits have different dynamics. There would be sometimes where I'd be teary in the airport, and then once I was out for an hour or two, I'd feel better, but then there'd be times where I'd be like you are now, and it sucked Is it a particularly stressful time of the year for you as well, or did something bigger happen this time around...or maybe it's getting closer to the end of your LDR and that could be playing a role? Just throwing things out there...maybe there's no rhyme or reason to it and this time you simply feel the emotion of departure more.

Hope you are feeling better soon

I'm sorry this parting was particularly painful for you.  It's hard and can really suck sometimes.  You'll get to feeling better at some point that is right for you!  Take care. 

I'm sorry that this time is so much harder for you than last time. I also had times when it was easier than others and I think it really did have to do with where we were with our relationship at the time.

He only came to visit me once, I did the rest of the visiting because I am a teacher and had more regular vacations. That time he came to visit me was the worst. When I would visit I could come back and just go back to "real life" everything is so different it made the separation easier. I would only cry at the airport and plane. When he came to visit me, I was reminded of him everywhere and having his scent and things that he left were so difficult. He left a glass of water on his side of the bed and I couldn't move it until it had long evaporated. 

(((hugs))) It'll get better. Do you have another visit or a move set?

My one-wayflight back is booked for 9 January - just hoping the appeal will be sorted out by then. It's not going to be a terribly long time before we're together again (for good, this time). I think what's making me so upset is the fact that I have to stay here in this particular town, while he gets to go back to the place I love most of all. I can't put into words how much I hate this town - and I've hated it since I was a kid. But *shrug* I'll be able to home soon and everything will be fine.

Thanks to everyone for your lovely words of support, you are fantastic! 

For us, the last bit of long distance was the worst. Hang in there, you'll make it. That's only just over a month away and this time of year should go fast. 

just wanted to say i hope ur feeling better i remember how hard it can be...im sure its hard for him too, soon though u guys will be together:) happy vibes to you!

It is hard.  Being upset or doing weird things because you miss him is something everyone's probably gone through in LDRs.  I had rituals for before Mr. Moggs came to visit and for after he left.  Otherwise, I couldn't deal with myself.  I think people understand more than we give them credit, but no one trully knows unless they've been there.

Hope everything goes well with your appeal.

Am feeling a bit better, trying to keep meself busy and surrounded by good friends. Cheers again for being so darn lovely ^_^

I would totally snuggle up with DH's dressing gown...aww 

Hope you are feeling better and will be reunited soon!

Chin up

awww i know how you feel!!!  it seems like it gets harder every time... especially when you start to think about it.  but january 9th??? that's totally doable!  you'll be back together before you know it... i have to wait until february or march until i go back again damnit! just enjoy the time you have left at home, because i'm sure there's a lot of things you'll miss when you move... i hope you're doing better!!

Have you lodged the appeal yet?


Vicky

Yes indeedy. My big fat binder is on its way to the AIT! *crosses fingers*

 :\\\'(
Your post almost made me cry.
It brought back so many memories for me of what it was like when he left the first time.
I don't know why I cried like that for a week.
I remember not being able to clean out the apartment we had without crying.
I rented one for him when he came for three months.

I hope that everything works out well for you and that you figure out what you will be doing about the seperation.

I don't know if I will ever be able to seperate from my mate again.
I just don't know if I can stand the time apart.