@Everyone - thank you for all your kind words and suggestions. I try to keep a happy face and 'stick to business' here and not let how I'm feeling affect me or come through in my posts...and I know my husband is just tired of hearing it from me and it makes him feel badly as well because there's not much he can do about it either. So it's just easier for me to try and 'get on with it' rather than bring him down too.
My main experience work is in Government and Public Benefits Administration & Recovery. I spent nearly 10 years in that field before leaving for the UK. Before that I had done general office & convenience retail while putting myself through Uni. I have a double Bachelors (Liberal Studies & Theology - strange combo I know, why I did it I have no idea) and an Associates as well. I've worked since I was 14 when I started my own Document Prep Service (made pretty good money for a Freshman in High School too!). Now that I've hit the 2 year mark of not working and my daughter nearing 16 months old it's just that when I came to the UK 2 yeas ago, this is not how I envisioned my life.
@julie.bug - My 35th birthday is coming up next month and I really think that it might be part of this whole issue I'm having. I just want you to know that in no way do I think myself as superior to anyone on this board, in fact I KNOW that if I left today and never posted again my shoes would EASILY be filled by someone else.
@Navie - I do some gaming not really seriously though. I've maxed out on a few facebook gaming app's and honestly after a while I do find it boring (just how many fields can I harvest on Farm Town without going nutty anyway). I've never tried WoW or any role playing games and wouldn't even know where to begin. But thanks for the tip.
@Aless - thanks for the website, I'll have a mosey through it when my daughter goes to bed tonight.
@ksand24 & Jewlz - I'm not really the creative type to be a writer. Given a topic I can do a pretty damn good research paper though

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@bookgrl - tell me what program and I'll watch it for you and send you a synopsis each episode

@Jennie - thank you that makes me feel good to know I've done some good hanging about as much as I do.
Again, Thanks everyone for just letting me vent. I still feel like crying but maybe I just need to let it out and get it over with before my husband gets home from work.
