Hi all.
So I am moving to Manchester in September. I am stressed. I am stressed about every little thing. So this is a venting. Things that I am stressed about:
1. money - not having enough when i get there, and not having enough now for what i need
2. custody of my daughter - my ex is being a a%$) and telling me that he isnt going to "allow" any time for her to come over...yes he is still thinking he is the one in control and the boss...still thinking he can control my life.
3. my family hating my guts
4. my fiance is getting impatient, bored, restless, irritated at the waiting and wanting me to hurry - this adds so much stress on me...I feel like its my fault, or that I need to do something to entertain him...i feel like its my fault.
5. getting everything done before i leave
6. buying a plane ticket for July to come over and visit (yes I am visiting one last time before I am over there permanently.
Theres a lot more. my fiance keeps telling me how nice it is there, and that I am missing out on the summer. I hate my job right now, and cant wait to be leaving it...course then i will have the stress of getting one over there.
I feel like my life is in this horrible limbo, not changing or progressing. It seems like thes last 3 months are taking forever. It seems like this last stretch is so hard, not to last but just irritating that you want to be with your partner and everything be fine.