The Ebb and Flow

Ok does anyone else go through this.  I call it the Ebb and Flow, ok there are some nights when I am completly ok with being away from my dh I love him very much and miss him but I am ok in being here without him.  Then there are nights like tonight where I just miss him so much it hurts, like I can't cry hard enough, or pray hard enough for our time apart to end.  I need to hear his voice and I just can't get enough of my time with him.  Does anyone else go through this or I have I completly lost my mind?

You are definitely not alone. I go through the same highs and lows so often. I just got back from a visit a few weeks ago so am on one of my down phases now, not knowing when we will be close enough to touch again  :\\\'(. Hugs to you, as far as I am concerned what you are going through is completely normal, as hard as it may be!

I can completely understand.  My brit fiance was just here last month, and I am going to hate to see his phone bill for the last of March beginning of April.  Some nights our talking online just isn't enough, and so he'll call me while his going to sleep.  I'm not sure if that makes it worse or better, but I know that I can't wait until I get to move in June! 

I go through this a lot.  I'm happier that I found this site and that most of my feelings, fears, doubts, etc. are justified.  I feel for you!

My BF will be here tomorrow for the long weekend, but I'm already crying about saying good-by on Monday.  OK so I know this is a little crazy, BUT I'm going to share this....This is so hard on me sometimes and I TRY NOT to be sad when we are together so sometimes I find myself putting on this brave face and then going into the bedroom for a quick cry...I do feel mental sometimes. 

My solice is that this situation is temporary.  We have the rest of our lives together and in the grand scale this is a little blink.

yup Im having a low day today , I think since Monday I have been puttin a brave face on things and trying maybe a bit to hard to be cheerful all the time , I have had a really really awful day and I just want to cry n scream at somthing.
Tomorrow Ill be fine though I bet.

dam hormones .

OH yes, you are definately NOT alone in feeling this way.

actually this is supposed to be a sign of emotional health! that your feelings and daily life are not affected by what is going on in your relationship!

I have only been apart from my sweetie for 60 hrs...and at times I cry thinking how much I miss his voice, his touch, our daily routine...running to hug him when he got home from work (etc)
and at times I can just get on with my daily routine here...

which is what I know I HAVE to do, if I ever hope to be with him again!

Hugs to all of you who are missing your partners but getting on with life

I am so glad I am not crazy, the Ebb and Flow is back to the flow.  I am feeling better and working more on getting myself over there.

Although I hate the Ebb part (the bad part) but I think it is completlly neccesary, it reduces my stress and let's me know that I still have feelings.  Sometimes when I get into a crazy busy time in my life I shut my emotions down and work on the project until it is done.  But with this situation I have to include my emtions because that is what is driving me over there for the most part, plus my love well he is a wonderful help.  We have been through 4.5 months of waiting before and it flew by (didn't seem like it then, but it does now)  I guess I am lucky because my friend is a military wife and she doesn't get access to her hubby but maybe a phone call once a month and the letters that are sporadically sent, plus she doesn't have the security to know when her time apart will end or even if he will come home alive.  I can't imagine my heart goes out to her.

I am also glad that I am not the only one who is waiting till September to move, it is nice to know there are others ticking off the days.

Thanks everyone.

Yea- I am Ebbing right now. LOL- as you will see once you read your MySpace email. The suck of it all is that I am finally here in the UK with my darling. I thought life would be perfect once we were together- but now I know that everyone has bad days, worries about money and stresses about moving and living in another country. I have not logged into this website in a long time and I am soooo glad I did today. I feel so much better knowing it's just a stage- but please do respond to my email anyway...

Ahh yess the Ebbing is abound these days.  I having it right now because of the ever loving holy dollar...meaning I don't have enough.  Plus the fact that nothing is selling, but I will remain strong and wait here until the Ebb turns back into the flow...it will just waiting kills me sometimes.

Big finger to the Ebb!!!!

Big finger to the Ebb!!!!

Better be careful - you don't want to make her angry - she might stick around longer to smite you!   

Whoops big hugs to you Ebb (blech)

I don't need her around any longer.

I don't know if I'm Ebbing  :\\\'(
I just got done crying so I think PMS may have something to do with this.

We had an hour long REAL conversation and I was SO happy but then I hung up the phone and cried.  We haven't spoken for more than 5-10 minutes in weeks.  We've both been very stressed over the last month with work, health issues, LDR, family..etc. Typical stuff, but difference is we haven't really been able to discuss anything about us! Most importantly - When we are going to see each other again!! 

Tonight I asked if he would be here July 15th because we were invited to a 50th Anniv. party and I need to RSVP.  He's not sure, he was planning to be, but it changes day to day and can't give me an answer.  He may have a better idea next week.

So then I asked if I should book my flight for August.  Our plan was to go to his friend's wedding on the 19th and then we are going to go somewhere exotic for a week.  He said that he wasn't sure if we'd be able to go away because of work and he needed to call his friend about the wedding because my name wasn't on the invite!  I told him NOT to call - I'm not invited.  He insisted that it was an oversight because his friend knows I was supposed to be living there by now.  Whatever!

I'm almost finished rambling...I guess the ebb is his job.  It's totally pushing back and interfering on our lives and I just have to always take a breath and swallow all the frustration.  He's been working on this deal since mid-March and it's so close to being done, but it's also very day to day.  Everything about his work is.  I really shouldn't complain because it's his job that is going to support me, but I just hate how much it interferes sometimes.   

It's just dissappointing...so dissappointing.
I really needed to get that out - sorry for the ramble!

HUG HUG HUG!!!

Roy and I have been bickering lately because of all the stress.  I haven't really told anyone around me except a select few on here in UKY because EVERYONE assumes we are breaking up.  WE AREN'T! Like a normal couple we get stressed and then gripe at each other, I consider it all normal.  We then laugh and make fun of each other in among all the whispered I love you's.

So take a deep breath my dear and if you want to PM me and rant away go ahead I am here

Seriously, I ebb and flow alot during the day.

Like there was one pt when i was feeling on top of the world and happy, but it can sink to the depths of borderline depression and then I wonder about the transition from one to another....guess that's life!

Luckily, I will be seeing my boo in a little over a month..and BOY do i look forward to September!!!

 :\\\'( yup...i'd give anything some nights to have him next to me in bed.