I remember when I first read this and a part of me wanted to have the guts to do the same. But all that money spent in getting the visa, trouble in selling my home, upheaval with my family and yada yada yada I decided to go through with it. I guess it says something that right after the wedding when we got back to the flat for me to change I stuffed my wedding dress in the wardrobe not even wanting to look at it anymore.
My hubby isn't a mean or nasty person but we just weren't meant to be. Friends yes, spouses no. As I write this I am miserable, wish I had my old life back, my job, my home, and even my dog. It tore me up giving her away (she is in a good home). My hubby didn't want a dog and our flat would not have been conducive to one either.
I realize that I married for the adventure of England and not the man. Sad for me to even admit this but its true.
Thank goodness for family because my folks always said if it doesn't workout I can always move back home. I'd feel like such a loser. I'd move in with my folks, look for a job, pay off the debt I got myself into, clear up my credit, save up enough $$ to eventually get a house.
And the chicken that I am and not wanting confrontation my plan is to leave my hubby while he's at work. I don't want an emotional scene. He knows our marriage is shot, we're like roommates, we argue and lots of nasty things come out along with the truth. When I talk to him about it he acts as if nothing is wrong but deep down I know he's miserable but I think he just doesn't want to be alone.
I still haven't said anything to my family about this yet.
I only plan on taking my clothes, shoes, some books, and photos. I need to coordinate the movers packing away my stuff so it can be shipped back to the U.S. and having a plane ticket to fly out that same day all while he's at work.
