1. I am so tired this week... I was in Germany at a music festival last weekend. It didn't finish until 2am Monday morning, then I had to be up at 7am to get to the airport. Didn't get home until 8:30pm, went straight to bed and was up at 5:15am for work Tuesday morning, and 5:45am Wednesday morning (but woke up at 5am), and 5:45am Thursday morning (but woke up at 4am). I only averaged about 5 hours of sleep a night between Monday and Thursday
. Got about 8.5 hours last night, but have a headache today and I'm on a night shift tonight.
2. Work has been manic - came in Tuesday morning to find the observation system was down so I had to do the weather observations manually (and we had fog on the airfield)... I was knackered so I spent all morning making stupid mistakes. On Wednesday we had our office refurb (we've moved from PCs and small monitors, to laptops connected to large screens), so there were guys building desks, moving furniture and generally being arsey with me all day, while I was trying to actually do my job amongst the mess (not my fault they turned up 2 hours later than scheduled and then complained they didn't have enough time to complete the work).
3. My parents are no longer coming on the South Africa trip (due to my dad's broken hip), which means my options are to either cancel as well, or go on my own and spend the trip trying to make awkward small talk with my brother (who I only see maybe once a year and I really don't want to spend 24/7 with him for 3 weeks) and then enduring Christmas with his wife (who is nice enough, but we don't really click - I find it hard to talk to her) and her dad and sister, who I've barely met before. The whole point of me going in the first place was to actually spend time with MY parents for Christmas, but they won't even be there now... but if I cancel, I can spend the holiday with them.
4. Not to mention, as per number 1 above, I'm
tired. I don't think I can manage the stress of navigating a 3-week trip across SA which I haven't even planned myself (I can't even remember what we're supposed to be doing when we get there) and probably wouldn't plan for myself. I'm not sure I would enjoy it... in fact, right now, I'm dreading the thought of going. On top of that, I'm travelling overseas for 3 months on 8th January which leaves very little time to get ready or relax before I go (my parents are rescheduling their trip for February, but I can't go because I'll be overseas again)!
5. So, my current plan is to cancel the trip completely.
Problem is, having contacted the travel insurance company, while I can get all my money back, it seems like a massive hassle to get the necessary paperwork for it (I'm supposed to contact the airline to get a cancellation invoice with reasons for cancellation, but it's Qatar airlines and it seems their only offices are in the Middle East). So, now I'm debating just cancelling the flight - I'll get a refund of 75% - and just writing off the money I'll lose from it (£190) and from my non-refundable train ticket to Heathrow (£35) and not bothering with a claim.
Overall, I'm just exhausted right now (it's almost midday and I'm still in bed), plus emotional and headache-y (due to hormones), and my IBS seems to be playing up for the first time in ages... so I'm really not in the best state of mind to be making these decisions... but my parents only have until this weekend to cancel/postpone the trip
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