I watched MTV's 16 & Pregnant on Sunday, which featured "Kailyn" who was living with the baby's fathers parents, as her mother wasn't really interested in her. The story with her biological parents was sad, but I could not get over how supportive and loving her (for all intents and purposes) MIL was. Check her out in this article
http://remotecontrol.mtv.com/2010/04/28/16-and-pregnant-response-jos-mom-feels-blessed-to-help-kailyn/ In my most self absorbed way, I was moved to tears because THIS is how I pictured my in-laws to be and it is so, so far from being that.
I feel terrible for not loving (hell, not even liking) my in laws. Everyone in my family has been blessed with great in-laws. My mother calls her ex-in laws once a week, and my paternal grandmother calls my mother her daughter. Even my godmothers in-laws were great people who were invited to all our family parties. I never had the chance to meet my IL's until after we were married (actually the day I moved over into their house!). I had sent them letters, but I should have realized that when I never heard back and they never wanted to speak to me on the phone, it wouldn't be a perfect relationship.
My FIL is a racist, bigoted man (ask him about how blind/deaf people are not regular humans sometime!), that can not stop talking about how his wife is fat and lazy. He tells his 4 year old granddaughter she is getting fat
. He always puts down my husband and his choices, calling him a try-hard who has a waste of a college degree. My DH is always wrong about everything to him, and the only one who he praises (sometimes) is my SIL, who was a teen mom who dates a drug dealer. I actually don't mind her, but you are going to praise her lifestyle over someone who did well in school, put themselves through Uni, has a good job and is married to someone who works inside the law? He just seems to like to put him down because he feels threatened by him. I can not on principle enjoy being in the company of someone who talks sh*t about my DH.
My MIL is very quiet and shy person. I can't really tell much about her personality. She always claims people are doing stuff to her, or being rude to her, but she isn't the type to ask about how you are and comes off as rude, so I assume people are doing the same to her. She hates groups of people, so she starts fights with family members so she doesn't have to go to b-day parties, xmas, whatever. She didn't want to visit her parents while they were dying (sick people upset her) so she didn't see them the last two years of their lives. She did, however care enough to throw a fit (around the funeral) over the will, because her one relative (the primary carer for her parents for the past 3 years) got slightly more money than her. So she no longer talks to her family, and my husband and I are supposed to ignore them to. When DH's cousin (our age) had a baby and we went to see him, she wouldn't even talk to or look at us when we saw her that same weekend. The fact that I only have 4 'family' members I am allowed to speak to in the UK, when I left behind 22 first cousins alone in the States does not make me want to raise my future children here.
My IL's are also opposed to us moving to the States, which they never mention to DH, but always mention to me. About how they would be upset if we moved to London (30 min away) let alone the US. Which is a surprise to me since they never say "I love you" or hug/kiss each other or their children. Sometimes it breaks my heart to think of my husband growing up like that and I feel blessed he is the polar opposite.
I also have nothing in common with my IL's so even though we are with them once a week, we have nothing to talk about. My DH says he will miss family time when we move to the states, but family time usually involves us watching tv and sometimes my FIL interjects with a lovely comment about how immigrants are ruining the country. Thanks 'dad'
.
It kills me that my DH and parents have such a good relationship- they treat him like a son and my sisters call him their brother- and I can rarely build up enough energy to plaster a smile on my face and sit through a Sunday roast with his parents. I feel so guilty, because it was incredibly nice of them to let us stay for 3 months at their house, when I would have otherwise had to wait in the States for that time, apart from my DH. Which is why I feel like I can't stand up for myself / my DH / niece when they slag him off, say something derogatory, etc. I was so looking forward to having a second set of parents and I feel crushed that I won't find that in my husbands family. I also feel worried about having children here, as I want them to have grandparents that say they love them and not say hurtful things (I am sure, however, that my FIL will regret the day he attempts to call my toddler fat, if he survives it). I have a hard time telling people that I don't like them, because it makes me feel guilty, and I don't want to make DH feel bad, as he feels pretty guilty about moving away from my family.
I know my situation is not half as bad as some on this thread, and that my only problem is that I come from a great family and expect my great DH to come from one too. I just need to vent (and probably watch less mtv
).